Irritating

Do not ever think that you know me well, and you can be funny at the back of me...
Do not ever think that because you know me, you are entitle to invite my hubby to go out with you without my notice...
If you really think that you know me so well, do you know that, acctually I seriously do not like, as in SERIOUSLY DO NOT LIKE what you are doing right now!

4 Years

My "er jie" called up me just a short while ago... He was asking about how am I doing lately as its quite sometime we didn't meet each other since our last gathering... He did ask about how is it going between me and my hubby... Suddently he reminded me about something which I always negleted in each of my relationships... That is a period of so called "probation" that each of us need to undergo in order to stabilize our relationship...

He said, to consider a stable relationship, need to undergo at least a period of 4 years... 4 years, not long, but not a short period as well... Can my hubby and I undergo through it? Is it too much to worry about this now? I also do not know... I just know that in a sudden, I was so quiet and started to think about this issue... If you ask me what I wanted or what I hope it will be? Of course my answer will be I hope that I can undergo the 4 years and archieve a stable relationship with my hubby... I love him, this is the fact, but no one knows what will happen in future...

I tell myself, by hook or by crook, I want to undergo the 4 years and archieve a stable, so call stable relationship with my hubby... The reason is simple, because I Love Him.... I really love him so much... I don't want to loose him in my life.... I do not want that to happen... Gambate ba!

Emotions

I felt that I am seriously not ok... My emotions are pouring down like nobody's business... I do not know why, but I just felt uneasy... Tired and stressed... I hate this feeling but I'm undergoing now... I felt like banging my head on the wall, or find someone who hates me to give me a few tight slaps, so that I felt better... Feel like crying, but no tears sheded; Feel like talking to someone, but don't know who should I talk to... I hate myself for being like that... Seriously hating myself now!

Mentally Tortured, Stressed Out

Well, why I said so? Early in the morning, I was already being stressed out by those indian workers regarding their salary problem... They are just so noisy and I am the one always being sandwiched in between my boss and them... OMG~ They are trying to break my day into pieces just early in the morning...

The worst part is just now, in the late evening before end of the day, my boss suddently get a complain from Pedas, Linggi that the electricity in the house was cut by TNB and my boss is so damn mad and after we check with TNB, only know that it was tripped and not electricity cut off... Again, I kena for no reason...

I don't know what happened today, really stressed me out... Damn!

Rainy Season

Well, KL and PJ area are undergoing rainy season lately... Raining is good acctually as to moisture the air, but I just do not understand, why it chooses to rain during the time everyone finishes work... This is the one which I do not like... Due to the rain, trafic jams are caused and I seriously hate it... Suppossingly I can reach home in half an hour time, but because of the terrible trafic jam, I reached home after an hour... Its being 2 days, it was sunny through out the whole day but when around 430 or 5 pm, it started to rain heavily suddently...

So tired of working lately... so damn busy in the office... tons of work waiting for me to clear... Just do not know why, no matter how much I clear, the work load is still there... Haiz~

Well, my hubby will be coming back soon... I think it will be next week... He do not want to tell me the acctual date he will be back because he wanted to give me a suprise by knocking my door suddently... Miss him so so much... Really hope to see you soon... Can't wait for the day to arrive...

Bad Day

Well, I found out that lately my Friday is always bad... Last Friday, My petrol was stolen and I lost RM 100; Wheares this Friday, I was scolded by my 2 of my bosses this morning and it's not really my fault...

I'm just feeling so down and I have no mood to do everything... Why huh? Why My Friday lately always ruin my weekends... Haizzzzz~

Miz my hubby so much... Whenever I encounter problems, he is always the first one I'll go to... and he is always my best remedy to make me smile... But seems that, tonight my hubby is buzy... Miss you hubby... Hope to see you real soon...

God Had Given You A Face, and You, Get Yourself Another~

" God Had Given You A Face, and You, Get Yourself Another "
~Quoted By William Shakesphere

Well, this is a quote, quoted by William Shakesphere... At 1st I was a bit blur about it, but I get the true meaning behind... Since God had given you a face, just be yourself, do not get yourself another one...

Do not try to be a copy cat, or thinking of wearing a mask and you could be another person... Being youself is something relax and to be proud of... If God had given you such qualifications, so just be with it... Do not try to change it... Copying someone is something difficult...

My hubby always tell me, do not change to much... I love you is because who you are, just be yourself and it is more than enough... I love you too hubby... Hugz Hugz

Excuses

A lot of people love to give themselves excuses... Why I said so? Well, I saw it a lot and as well as me myself, sometimes, I love to give myself excuses as well...

The best example will be like:
I'm too tired after work, I can't clean the house. Well, this is totally an excuse you give yourself... Not to say that I'm great, but aren't I working? But, everyday, after I get home, I still sweep the house and mop it before I go to bath, its my daily routine. Sometimes, I really feel tired and don't feel like doing it, but, I'll tell myself, do not give EXCUSES, just do it... Well, work is work, there is no such things that my job is tougher and I'm defenately more more tired compare to you... Come'on, do you think the position I held as an Accounts Executive in my company is an easy task? I admit, I'm sitting in an air-con room, but I can't have a pieceful mind though. I need to use up my entire mind to squeeze out solutions when I meet problems... There is no such thing as an easy job on earth... Be awake!

I encounter the situation, so I wrote it out and share it... I just do not like when people said this:
"Your job is just so easy, sitting in the office whole day..."
Well, my answer will always be:
"If then, lets exchange our job, I bet, for just one day, you'll give up..."

Again, do not judge a book by its cover... You won't know what is inside, until you flip it through~

Life=Problems

Well, life=problems, argee?
I do not know whether you'll agree with the equation, but to me, I'm fully agreed and its prooven as well... When God created us, humans, He already set a series of problems for us to face it... Since the problems are already being granted since we're born, so, just face it, cure it and not run away from it... If a life without problems, we, as a human won't grow up... As we humans, learn from mistakes and from overcoming problems...

Do not grumble why you have so much problems to overcome whereas the others do not have it? Well, we do not know... Maybe he/she is facing some problems at the back and it just did not show up... Remember, do not judge a book upon its cover... Until we flip the book, we won't know what is inside... Just as if we run away when problems popped up... We did not even try to overcome it, just grumble and said impossible its going to be overcomed...

Well, face your problems, overcome it... The more you overcome problems, the stronger you are... Challenge yourself for a better future -:)

Emotionally Unstable

Yesterday I'm undergoing the state of emotionally unstable...
I was feeling an uneasy atmosphere serounding me yesterday morning when I woke up, and it started to get worsen during evening...
Sometimes I hate myself when I come to this stage... I totally do not know what I want and I'm in a total lost... Getting fraustrated easily, do not feel like talking, just wanted to be alone and hide myself in the room...
Well, only 2 ways to make me feel better... 1st, get me a cup of Hot Starbucks; 2nd, my hubby will be the best remedy when I'm in the state... Yesterday, unfortunately my hubby is very busy preparing his presentation for today, so, I have no choice to go for the 1st option, which is get myself a cup of Starbucks...
I'm sending things to my friend, I can't stay at her place long as she is trying to making me stay, but, I really can't... So I left her house after about 10 mins and from Sri Petaling, straight I drove to Subang to get my Starbucks...
I get a cup of Venti size Mocha and straight I head back home... Well, after sipping the coffee, it calms my soul and I'm not as fraustrated as before... But another symptom of mine popped out, which is I suddently feel like eating and I'm acctually not hungry at all... This really shows that yesterday I'm just out of order... By the way, I feel like eating but I am not carving for solid foods... I will just carve for junk food and luckily, I had a pack of twisties at home... So, straight, I opened it up and finish it...

At last my hubby is online and I get to chat with him and I also had my coffee, so, at least I felt a lot more better before I go to bed.... -:)

Uneasy Atmosphere

I don't know what happened to me this morning, I'm feeling uneasy... How to explain it? Uhmm... I do not now how, but since I woke up, I felt myself like not feeling well, felt stressed... Its quite sometime I didn't had this feeling... I just hate it... Maybe it's because I knew that my hubby wasn't recovering from his appetite, I'm too worry about him...

Sorry hubby, sometimes I hate myself for not being beside you to take care of you... I know you are stressed out over there... Please take a good rest and get well soon... Love you, Muackz~

What A Worse Day Today Was, But....

What a worse day today was to me!

Well, early in the morning, when I started my car's engine, I found out that my petrol was just half tank and I remembered that yesterday before I off the engine, it was still full tank... At first, I was thinking about the meter might show a wrong record, but after that, I felt that its not quite possible and I started to think that it might be leaking. So, I keep on looking at my back mirror and try to figure out whether are there any petrol trail left behind, but, there aren't any... Until I reached office, I was still looking, no dripping at all... After I asked my collegue to check, only I realized that it was the nut loosen and he said, high posibility, people steal my petrol and not tighten the nut... OMG, for 8 years, I'm being driving, this is the 1st time happen on me >.<

When I finished work, before I go home, I went to the petrol station to pump my petrol as its getting low... By the time I wanted to pay, only i realized that the RM 200 I drew out this morning, only left RM 100 in my wallet... WTF, I was trying to think back, is it I accidentally used it and I didn't notice? And I confirmed that I didn't... But there is a strange thing which is, this morning when I placed the money into my wallet, it's the back is facing me; But when I took out my money just now, the front is facing me, so I am confirmed that someone opened my wallet and took my money away... The best part is, I don't even know, when did this happened >.<

After I was home, I was so down and I complained to my hubby... He console me and tell me not to be sad... He was so caring and lovely... He told me that, no matter how, I still have him :)
Well, although today was a bad day, but with my hubby, at least, I felt that it's not as worse as I thought... I Love you~

Hard Time

Having a tough time in office as now the management had installed a firewall...
The worst part is, our beloved "FaceBook" had being block at the 1st place...
Well, can't blame the management as there are staffs taking things for graunted. They said they don't have time to finish their task, but in fact, they have time to surf FaceBook...

Haiz, now, if I walk out from my room,
I can see everyone is very hardworking...
Why? Because except work, they had no more other things to do....

Time Flies

Its quite sometime I didn't came up here and update my blog...
Well, when i read back my previous posts,
I remember that I set 5 targets during August,
They are:

1st ~ Diet
2nd ~ Go Back Penang
3rd ~ Decorate My Room Nicely
4th ~ Find Some Accounting Clients
5th ~ Save Money

Well, I had successfully shrink down almost to my original size...
Although there are still a bit more to improve, but at least, all my clothes I can fit them in...
The 2nd trip to Penang will mostly be next month... Well, Fellas, I'll be back! Get prepared~
My room now is nicly decorated during Raya last month...
Nice Dimmed table lamp, a coffee table, tea light holders and so on...
My room is alwayz dim with the lights and candles lit with sweet aroma of cherry and tropical fruit...
Regarding accounting clients, its still under process, nothing much to say about...
Saving money? Well, this is the toughest among all of them... Due to high debts of mine at the momment, I can't archieve it yet...

At least, out of 5 targets I set, 3 already being archieved... Consider good lolz~

Regarding me and my devil,
well, we spend a great time togehter before he flew off to Adelaide...
I really feel the love from him and I loved him so so much...
Although we're not besides each other, but our feelings maintained and to me, that will be more than enough...
He is kinda buzy lately as we can't alwayz meet on Skype...
I will be missing you badly, my beloved hubby...
Yeah, I called him Hubby now and I am his so called "wife" lolz -:P

Besides, I had a healthy lifestyle since my Hubby left to Adelaide...
I sleep in between 10-11 every night and wake up in between 5-6 in the morning...
I adopt this lifestyle from my Hubby as well as he used to sleep early and wake up early everyday -:)

I'm quite satisfied with my life now...
I will maintain it as alwayz...
-:)

Feeling Bad

Well, today seems like a nightmare to me...
In the office, I was buzy likie nobody's business and yet everyone wants their things to be done fast...
But, please be alert that I have only a pair of hands and a brain...
No matter how fast I can go, I still need time to complete all the tasks one by one...

Tonight I'm feeling sad as I can't have a chatting session with My Little Devil as he can't online tonight due to his internet issues in his house...
I am understand enough thath I can't blame him for that and I'm hating myself...
Why? Why? Why? Why? Why and Why?
I keep asking myself...
Why I miss him so badly...
But, I really do miss him...

When there is Believe, There is Hope...
When there is Hope, There is Trust...
When There is Trust, There is LOVE.....
I miss you so much my baby devil...
I love you... Muackz...

Plans - August 2011

Uhmm....
Well, I have some plans for August...

1st ~ Diet
2nd ~ Go Back Penang
3rd ~ Decorate My Room Nicely
4th ~ Find Some Accounting Clients
5th ~ Save Money

At the momment, I have 5 plans that I need to achieve this August...
Well, an experiment showed that when I skipped every dinner, I was abviously slim down a bit compare to before lolz....
In order to get things for my room, I need to go back Penang...
There are something which I need to take...
My side table and lamp, bed sheets, curtains and all my clothes which i left out in Penang earlier...
I need to buy things to make my room looks nice.... uhmm... there are a list of things to buy lolz~ headache~
Well, I'm searching for part time jobs... Acctually I planned to work in a retail shop at 1st... but I felt that I wont have my life if I work part time there... and the most important is if I work at retail shop, I wont have time for My Little Devil and that is a big NONO to me...
Lastly, I need to save money as me and my devil are planning for a christmas trip to Melaka maybe.... lolz~

I tell myself, I need to achieve all the 5 things which I wrote here today...
*REMINDER*

The Devil's Monkey

Well,
The Devil's Monkey or vise versa...
kinda unbelivable isn't it?

uhmm...
They met each other when they both commented on a Domokun's pic which is belongs to a friend...
They felt nice to chit chatting to each other and there was one day, the devil fall sick and mc...
This makes the monkey feel worried and keep an eye on the devil's situation...
Throughout this incident, both of them felt that some chemical reaction burst and at last, The Little Devil and The Little Monkey started....

Well....
Its a true story...
Believe it or not?
I know its quite unbelievable,
but believe it ^^

MonKey See, MonKey Do, MonKey Says: "I LOVE YOU"
DeVil Saw, DeVil Did, DeVil Replied: "I LOVE YOU TOO"

2011年7月9日

我永远都会记得这一天....
因为这一天，就是我与我的前男友说分手的日子...
很巧的，我与他的开始，是在2010年1月9日...
这段恋情维持了1年7个月...
我不觉得可惜，也不觉得心痛...
因为，在这一年七个月里，我过着的，都不是我梦寐以求的生活....
而是被人监视的生活....
我受够了！
这是最后一篇文章，会有他的出现....
接下来，他就再也不会出现在我的生活里了...
再见吧~
再也不见！后会无期！

七月~我的心情

时间过得真快
我已经差不多三个月没有上来了
突然间觉得想写部落格
所以，就上来咯

这三个月
有好多的事情发生
一言难尽
我也换了工作
很不错的一间公司
规模也蛮大的说
我的工作很开心
但，感情生活就有点问题
感觉怪怪的
不懂怎么说
好混乱的说

现在已经七月了
我感觉这7个月里
我好像什么都没做到似的
我，感觉上，依然还是停留在2010年的我
我知道我不能继续这样下去了
我得想个办法解决
中断那些该中断的
继续那些该继续的
好好的跨过
2011年的另外六个月
以及，我现在的终极目标
就是:-
减肥！

可惜，我是水瓶座

原来你这样珍惜我
从前在热恋中都未听讲过
别说这种行货
哪里留得住我
到底是为什么分手你很清楚
如可笨到底但到底还是我
谁人待我好待我差太清楚
想继续装傻却又无力受折磨
心里羡慕那些人
盲目到不计后果
我就回去别引出我泪水
尤其明知水瓶座最爱是流泪
若然道别是下一句
可以闭上了你的嘴
无谓再会要是再会更加心碎
要是回去没有止痛药水
拿来长岛冰茶换我半晚安睡
十年后或现在失去
反正到最尾也唏嘘
够绝情我都赶我自己出去

大家应该对这首歌很熟悉吧？
我觉得这首歌里所唱的，真的很像我的状况.....
近期内很压力，尤其是我的死党从槟城下来后...
无形的压力，被我男朋友施在我身上...
我真的搞不懂，我跟我的好朋友聊天，他也会不喜欢...
说我不理他，只顾着和朋友聊天...完全不顾他的感受...
真的是这样吗？
我真的搞不懂...

我，是一个典型的水瓶座...
我相信大家都知道，水瓶座的个性...
思想复杂，热爱自由，贪图新鲜，性情怪僻
我自然而然有完这些个性...
既然选了一个水瓶座，你应该需要知道吧？
水瓶座的人，很喜欢把人家拒于千里之外...
水瓶座的人，很容易对东西厌倦...贪新忘旧
水瓶座的人，很喜欢自由自在，不喜欢被当成笼中鸟来看待
你懂不懂，要怎么对待一个水瓶座的人吗？
与其你每天跟他要新鲜的东西，倒不如，你准备新鲜的东西给他...

我的心，现在真的很乱
感觉好压力
经济方面，我也很压力
lover方面又拼命地在施加压力
不懂我几时会崩溃
或许我该说：“可惜我是水瓶座”

心.....《酸》

感觉我自己很糟糕...
既然开始了嫉妒...

今天一早，心里酸酸的...
因为，我在fb里，看到了一些，我现在不想看到的东西...
也因为这，我很后悔，我之前所做的一件事...
但，一切都已经太迟了...
只能怨，怨上天让我们邂逅在不对的时间，
也让我们分开在不对的时间...
我能怨吗？
不能...

我承认，距离是一个障碍，
也很怨我自己，那时的我，并没有勇气面对距离，更没有勇气，把距离拉近...
当我踏出第一步，想把距离拉近时，所有的东西，都已经改变了，也有了定局...
我现在，都不懂我自己以什么心情来写这篇部落格...
每一个人，都必须为了他自己所做的，付出代价以及承担后果...
但，可以不要那么苦吗？
辛苦地在挣扎，有意思吗？

无论怎样，我还是衷心地祝福你们，
永远快乐，执子之手，与子偕老.....

领悟

刚刚读完了我朋友的一个部落格
原来，在我没上网的这一段时期
他的人生里，竟然经历了那么多...
也让我有所领悟，这告诉我，不必对我的低潮期，而感到不安

我与他，是在一个论坛里认识的
我还记得，有一次，他跟爱人分手后
曾有打电话给我，跟我聊天...
我这个朋友，很特别
虽然他的年纪小小，但，
他的思想很成熟，做人，也很有原则
这个也是我很欣赏他的地方...
除此之外，他还是一个很有上进心的年轻人...
他即将是一个未来的验眼师，会计师，而且他还是个模特儿

这里，我有几句话想对他说：

“我希望你会记得，我曾经答应过你，无论你发生什么事，你都可以找我商量，我会帮你一起解决... 我也曾经答应你，我是不会忘记你的，常常都会保持联络...所以，希望你也别忘了，你身边有一个这样的人，永远的，可以当你的避风港....”

低潮

人生，就是会有起伏不定...
我现在，正处于低潮期...
好难挨，好像放弃...

想回从前的我，
钱，对我来说，并不是很大的问题...
要花的，总会有得花；
相反的，现在，每花一分钱，都得想清楚...
没必要的，能省，则省...
感觉上，我好像在过着不如人的生活...
自从来了KL后，
并不是事事顺利，
而是处处碰壁...
唉~ 怨不得人...

多久没买新衣服了？不懂~
多久没有喝我最爱的Starbucks了？不懂~
为什么，我的生活水准，突然间会跌得那么离谱？
我真的搞不懂...

唉~
身材开始走样...
我两年前的努力，就快毁于一旦了~
28的腰围，55的重量，结实的肚子等，
就快要离我而去...
我必须从新努力，把以前的我，追回来！
努力！加油！Gambate~

感人的对白...我又哭了.....

"Would You Stay With Me? 在你回答我的问题以前，我想先告诉你一件事，在不久的将来，我会是一位心脏外科医生，病人把他最重要的器官，交给我，让我缝补，修理，而我只把我的心交给一个女人，只有她才能掌控我的命运...."

"我现在真的真的很生气，花了十年，把自己变成独立自主的女强人，你却花了十秒，把我变成一个笨蛋，我要开心还是高兴还是要生气还是回答你？"

"你应该先做这件事，你还没回答我的问题，这双手，放弃戴上婚介的原因是什么？"

"有没有看到这条线？这一条线，就是八年的距离，你现在看好了，我要跨过去了..."

"笨蛋，在我的心里，从来都没有这条线过....."

By 卢卡斯(Lucas) & 单无双 《败犬女王》第十八集

情歌

习惯是琥珀 泪一滴滴 被反锁
情书在不朽 淹没成沙漏

青春的上游 白云飞走 藏够雨还有
闪过的念头 潺潺地流走
命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆

回忆如困兽
寂寞太久 而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头 反而更自由

慢动作千卷胶卷重播默片
定格一瞬间

我们在告别的演唱会
说好不再见
你写给我 我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣
默协前奏
可是呢 然后呢
还好我又 握着一首情歌
轻轻地轻轻哼着 哭着笑着
我的 天长地久
命运好幽默 让爱的人都沉默
一整个宇宙 换一颗红豆

回忆如困兽
寂寞太久 而渐渐温柔
放开了拳头 反而更自由

长镜头 越来越远 越来越远
时隔好几年
我们在怀念的演唱会
礼貌地吻别

你写给我
我的第一首歌
你和我十指紧扣
默协前奏
可是呢 然后呢
还好我又 握着一首情歌
轻轻地轻轻哼着 哭着笑着
我的 天长地久

陪我唱歌 清唱你的情歌
舍不得短短副歌
心还热着 也该告一段落
还好我又握下一首情歌
是你宛如轻轻的 像涌的河
永远 天长地久

By 梁静茹 《静茹&情歌-别再为他流泪》

莫名其妙地爱上了这首歌...
台湾偶像剧《败犬女王》的其中一首电视原带...
觉得很有意义，而且，很感人...
尤其是在偶像剧里播出时....
所以就分享咯^^
希望大家会喜欢~

感人，我哭了....

“我曾经是你的保镖，可以名正言顺的呆在你身边，可是你现在身边已经有一个可以保护你的人了，就不会有我的位子了...”

“shhh...你现在叫我是为什么？是想要告诉我，你突然改变主意，打算要跟我在一起？你是要告诉我，我想要听到的答案吗？如果不是，那就不必了...”

“我现在如果转过头来，我真的不知道会对你做些什么事情，除非你心里准备好要接受我或是你准备好要跟我在一起，不然你不要来招惹我...”

“失恋没什么，睡一觉起来就好了嘛...你说过，我二十五岁，你三十三岁，我们七年级生的爱情很速食的，我跟你才不一样呢，才不会为了一段没有希望的爱情，这样念念不忘.....”

-By卢卡斯(Lucas)《败犬女王》第十二集

终曲.....

这世上，
有很多东西都是千变万化的...
往往，最出乎意料的就是“爱情”...

自古：“问世间情为何物，真叫人生死相许”
古人讲的这一句话，
都是很有道理的...
我相信，自盘古开天辟地，直到现在，
已有数万数千年了，
《爱情》这两个字，真的还是无人能解.....

今天早上，
我上fb时，
看到我朋友share出的一个link...
就关于我献上的照片，
片中的人....
我相信大家都知道他们是谁...
北京很出名的情侣，
夏河与麦落落...
我自从2008年，就听闻他们的爱情史，
真的是很浪漫...
那时，我还这羡慕...
他们俩，可以说是天生的一对...
两个都真的是名副其实的帅哥...
但，
今天早上我看到的是，
他们俩，
竟然在2011年1月1日，
正式宣布分手....
已经到了终曲了.....
很可惜的说...
看到这则新闻，
突然间，我真的很感性...
就上来写了博客...

珍惜眼前人...
我还是这一句话....
别到失去了，才后悔...
Anywayz，
我还是真心的希望，
他们的决定是对的，
而且，要活得更好...
共勉之~

再此share上这则新闻的link：
http://www.douban.com/note/126113756/