4 Years

My "er jie" called up me just a short while ago... He was asking about how am I doing lately as its quite sometime we didn't meet each other since our last gathering... He did ask about how is it going between me and my hubby... Suddently he reminded me about something which I always negleted in each of my relationships... That is a period of so called "probation" that each of us need to undergo in order to stabilize our relationship...

He said, to consider a stable relationship, need to undergo at least a period of 4 years... 4 years, not long, but not a short period as well... Can my hubby and I undergo through it? Is it too much to worry about this now? I also do not know... I just know that in a sudden, I was so quiet and started to think about this issue... If you ask me what I wanted or what I hope it will be? Of course my answer will be I hope that I can undergo the 4 years and archieve a stable relationship with my hubby... I love him, this is the fact, but no one knows what will happen in future...

I tell myself, by hook or by crook, I want to undergo the 4 years and archieve a stable, so call stable relationship with my hubby... The reason is simple, because I Love Him.... I really love him so much... I don't want to loose him in my life.... I do not want that to happen... Gambate ba!

Emotions

I felt that I am seriously not ok... My emotions are pouring down like nobody's business... I do not know why, but I just felt uneasy... Tired and stressed... I hate this feeling but I'm undergoing now... I felt like banging my head on the wall, or find someone who hates me to give me a few tight slaps, so that I felt better... Feel like crying, but no tears sheded; Feel like talking to someone, but don't know who should I talk to... I hate myself for being like that... Seriously hating myself now!

Mentally Tortured, Stressed Out

Well, why I said so? Early in the morning, I was already being stressed out by those indian workers regarding their salary problem... They are just so noisy and I am the one always being sandwiched in between my boss and them... OMG~ They are trying to break my day into pieces just early in the morning...

The worst part is just now, in the late evening before end of the day, my boss suddently get a complain from Pedas, Linggi that the electricity in the house was cut by TNB and my boss is so damn mad and after we check with TNB, only know that it was tripped and not electricity cut off... Again, I kena for no reason...

I don't know what happened today, really stressed me out... Damn!

Rainy Season

Well, KL and PJ area are undergoing rainy season lately... Raining is good acctually as to moisture the air, but I just do not understand, why it chooses to rain during the time everyone finishes work... This is the one which I do not like... Due to the rain, trafic jams are caused and I seriously hate it... Suppossingly I can reach home in half an hour time, but because of the terrible trafic jam, I reached home after an hour... Its being 2 days, it was sunny through out the whole day but when around 430 or 5 pm, it started to rain heavily suddently...

So tired of working lately... so damn busy in the office... tons of work waiting for me to clear... Just do not know why, no matter how much I clear, the work load is still there... Haiz~

Well, my hubby will be coming back soon... I think it will be next week... He do not want to tell me the acctual date he will be back because he wanted to give me a suprise by knocking my door suddently... Miss him so so much... Really hope to see you soon... Can't wait for the day to arrive...

Bad Day

Well, I found out that lately my Friday is always bad... Last Friday, My petrol was stolen and I lost RM 100; Wheares this Friday, I was scolded by my 2 of my bosses this morning and it's not really my fault...

I'm just feeling so down and I have no mood to do everything... Why huh? Why My Friday lately always ruin my weekends... Haizzzzz~

Miz my hubby so much... Whenever I encounter problems, he is always the first one I'll go to... and he is always my best remedy to make me smile... But seems that, tonight my hubby is buzy... Miss you hubby... Hope to see you real soon...

God Had Given You A Face, and You, Get Yourself Another~

" God Had Given You A Face, and You, Get Yourself Another "
~Quoted By William Shakesphere

Well, this is a quote, quoted by William Shakesphere... At 1st I was a bit blur about it, but I get the true meaning behind... Since God had given you a face, just be yourself, do not get yourself another one...

Do not try to be a copy cat, or thinking of wearing a mask and you could be another person... Being youself is something relax and to be proud of... If God had given you such qualifications, so just be with it... Do not try to change it... Copying someone is something difficult...

My hubby always tell me, do not change to much... I love you is because who you are, just be yourself and it is more than enough... I love you too hubby... Hugz Hugz

Excuses

A lot of people love to give themselves excuses... Why I said so? Well, I saw it a lot and as well as me myself, sometimes, I love to give myself excuses as well...

The best example will be like:
I'm too tired after work, I can't clean the house. Well, this is totally an excuse you give yourself... Not to say that I'm great, but aren't I working? But, everyday, after I get home, I still sweep the house and mop it before I go to bath, its my daily routine. Sometimes, I really feel tired and don't feel like doing it, but, I'll tell myself, do not give EXCUSES, just do it... Well, work is work, there is no such things that my job is tougher and I'm defenately more more tired compare to you... Come'on, do you think the position I held as an Accounts Executive in my company is an easy task? I admit, I'm sitting in an air-con room, but I can't have a pieceful mind though. I need to use up my entire mind to squeeze out solutions when I meet problems... There is no such thing as an easy job on earth... Be awake!

I encounter the situation, so I wrote it out and share it... I just do not like when people said this:
"Your job is just so easy, sitting in the office whole day..."
Well, my answer will always be:
"If then, lets exchange our job, I bet, for just one day, you'll give up..."

Again, do not judge a book by its cover... You won't know what is inside, until you flip it through~

Life=Problems

Well, life=problems, argee?
I do not know whether you'll agree with the equation, but to me, I'm fully agreed and its prooven as well... When God created us, humans, He already set a series of problems for us to face it... Since the problems are already being granted since we're born, so, just face it, cure it and not run away from it... If a life without problems, we, as a human won't grow up... As we humans, learn from mistakes and from overcoming problems...

Do not grumble why you have so much problems to overcome whereas the others do not have it? Well, we do not know... Maybe he/she is facing some problems at the back and it just did not show up... Remember, do not judge a book upon its cover... Until we flip the book, we won't know what is inside... Just as if we run away when problems popped up... We did not even try to overcome it, just grumble and said impossible its going to be overcomed...

Well, face your problems, overcome it... The more you overcome problems, the stronger you are... Challenge yourself for a better future -:)

Emotionally Unstable

Yesterday I'm undergoing the state of emotionally unstable...
I was feeling an uneasy atmosphere serounding me yesterday morning when I woke up, and it started to get worsen during evening...
Sometimes I hate myself when I come to this stage... I totally do not know what I want and I'm in a total lost... Getting fraustrated easily, do not feel like talking, just wanted to be alone and hide myself in the room...
Well, only 2 ways to make me feel better... 1st, get me a cup of Hot Starbucks; 2nd, my hubby will be the best remedy when I'm in the state... Yesterday, unfortunately my hubby is very busy preparing his presentation for today, so, I have no choice to go for the 1st option, which is get myself a cup of Starbucks...
I'm sending things to my friend, I can't stay at her place long as she is trying to making me stay, but, I really can't... So I left her house after about 10 mins and from Sri Petaling, straight I drove to Subang to get my Starbucks...
I get a cup of Venti size Mocha and straight I head back home... Well, after sipping the coffee, it calms my soul and I'm not as fraustrated as before... But another symptom of mine popped out, which is I suddently feel like eating and I'm acctually not hungry at all... This really shows that yesterday I'm just out of order... By the way, I feel like eating but I am not carving for solid foods... I will just carve for junk food and luckily, I had a pack of twisties at home... So, straight, I opened it up and finish it...

At last my hubby is online and I get to chat with him and I also had my coffee, so, at least I felt a lot more better before I go to bed.... -:)

Uneasy Atmosphere

I don't know what happened to me this morning, I'm feeling uneasy... How to explain it? Uhmm... I do not now how, but since I woke up, I felt myself like not feeling well, felt stressed... Its quite sometime I didn't had this feeling... I just hate it... Maybe it's because I knew that my hubby wasn't recovering from his appetite, I'm too worry about him...

Sorry hubby, sometimes I hate myself for not being beside you to take care of you... I know you are stressed out over there... Please take a good rest and get well soon... Love you, Muackz~

What A Worse Day Today Was, But....

What a worse day today was to me!

Well, early in the morning, when I started my car's engine, I found out that my petrol was just half tank and I remembered that yesterday before I off the engine, it was still full tank... At first, I was thinking about the meter might show a wrong record, but after that, I felt that its not quite possible and I started to think that it might be leaking. So, I keep on looking at my back mirror and try to figure out whether are there any petrol trail left behind, but, there aren't any... Until I reached office, I was still looking, no dripping at all... After I asked my collegue to check, only I realized that it was the nut loosen and he said, high posibility, people steal my petrol and not tighten the nut... OMG, for 8 years, I'm being driving, this is the 1st time happen on me >.<

When I finished work, before I go home, I went to the petrol station to pump my petrol as its getting low... By the time I wanted to pay, only i realized that the RM 200 I drew out this morning, only left RM 100 in my wallet... WTF, I was trying to think back, is it I accidentally used it and I didn't notice? And I confirmed that I didn't... But there is a strange thing which is, this morning when I placed the money into my wallet, it's the back is facing me; But when I took out my money just now, the front is facing me, so I am confirmed that someone opened my wallet and took my money away... The best part is, I don't even know, when did this happened >.<

After I was home, I was so down and I complained to my hubby... He console me and tell me not to be sad... He was so caring and lovely... He told me that, no matter how, I still have him :)
Well, although today was a bad day, but with my hubby, at least, I felt that it's not as worse as I thought... I Love you~

Hard Time

Having a tough time in office as now the management had installed a firewall...
The worst part is, our beloved "FaceBook" had being block at the 1st place...
Well, can't blame the management as there are staffs taking things for graunted. They said they don't have time to finish their task, but in fact, they have time to surf FaceBook...

Haiz, now, if I walk out from my room,
I can see everyone is very hardworking...
Why? Because except work, they had no more other things to do....

Time Flies

Its quite sometime I didn't came up here and update my blog...
Well, when i read back my previous posts,
I remember that I set 5 targets during August,
They are:

1st ~ Diet
2nd ~ Go Back Penang
3rd ~ Decorate My Room Nicely
4th ~ Find Some Accounting Clients
5th ~ Save Money

Well, I had successfully shrink down almost to my original size...
Although there are still a bit more to improve, but at least, all my clothes I can fit them in...
The 2nd trip to Penang will mostly be next month... Well, Fellas, I'll be back! Get prepared~
My room now is nicly decorated during Raya last month...
Nice Dimmed table lamp, a coffee table, tea light holders and so on...
My room is alwayz dim with the lights and candles lit with sweet aroma of cherry and tropical fruit...
Regarding accounting clients, its still under process, nothing much to say about...
Saving money? Well, this is the toughest among all of them... Due to high debts of mine at the momment, I can't archieve it yet...

At least, out of 5 targets I set, 3 already being archieved... Consider good lolz~

Regarding me and my devil,
well, we spend a great time togehter before he flew off to Adelaide...
I really feel the love from him and I loved him so so much...
Although we're not besides each other, but our feelings maintained and to me, that will be more than enough...
He is kinda buzy lately as we can't alwayz meet on Skype...
I will be missing you badly, my beloved hubby...
Yeah, I called him Hubby now and I am his so called "wife" lolz -:P

Besides, I had a healthy lifestyle since my Hubby left to Adelaide...
I sleep in between 10-11 every night and wake up in between 5-6 in the morning...
I adopt this lifestyle from my Hubby as well as he used to sleep early and wake up early everyday -:)

I'm quite satisfied with my life now...
I will maintain it as alwayz...
-:)